Once I had the habit of gifting people with seashells Today I went to the beach and started, almost automatically, to pick up seashells. The sea line was near, the water was cold. The view was amazing. A dark blue pictured the feeling of coziness and fear at the same time: time is passing by. I felt grounded, fully aware of the simple yet profound gift of being alive. I felt centered by the awareness of being alive. In the moment I got them collected, someone was drawn into my memory, and one question was also brought up: "Who am I gifting with this? Who deserves to be loved by me through this?" Just today my conscience made me acknowledge I was giving people something that wasn’t even mine in the first place. How dare I? Maybe that's the cool part of experiencing places. We can’t bring back the Egyptian pyramids, the snow from Canada, and the joy you felt when spending time in Disneyland. Life can’t be held in someone’s jar. Someone I love told me yesterday that maybe, ...
Yesterday I hung up a portrait on my wall. When putting it on, I felt like the decoration wouldn't be there for much longer. It was kind of loose, it didn't quite fit. This situation got me thinking that sometimes we try just to have the pleasure of doing something. If it doesn't last, at least it happened, at some point, around for some time. Life and it´s intrinsic instability, pain will always surrender (as Budha said to us a long time ago). When playing a song on the guitar, cooking a delicious meal or simply taking a long shower some refreshing feeling takes over me.The fact these activities must be done all over again get in the frame of my mind. In the end, should we really mind it? Isn´t an interesting part of life it´s cicles and routines? "I can always try tomorrow" We can always try tomorrow. Falling in love seems like a very hard activity for me. Just like making my bed, sweeping the dust from the floor or simply doing the laundry and the fact...
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